1st Missed Milestone
November 8, 2023
I recently got hired for a job that I had been in the process of applying for a few months (I started back in June). My mom was there at the beginning, and I had so many doubts about my qualifications. I went back and forth on whether I should continue with the process or decline the job if it was offered. Of course, my mom reminded me that it would be the stupidest thing ever to give up without trying.
Being the pessimist I was, I ended up putting this job prospect on hold because my anxiety got the best of me and I ignored it for a bit. Interestingly, she never gave me the stern lecture that I needed to take action ASAP… solid evidence that she spoiled me rotten.
AHEM. Anyways, with my mom’s passing, my plans changed, and survival mode kicked in. I remembered the job I had backed out of and her encouragement, so I decided to be brave and call back to see if it was still available.
AND I GOT THE JOB! I was ecstatic, but I was also heartbroken that Mom isn’t here to celebrate with me, give me career advice, or cheer me on when my imposter syndrome hits. While I am receiving support and celebration from the people I love, my heart is still craving Mom’s physical presence and to hear her say, “Congratulations! I am proud of you!”
I wish she could offer me some advice for this new chapter in my life, but for now, I’m going to follow one piece of wisdom she gave my brother when he got his first job after moving out: “Like an eagle, open your wings and soar!”
Well, Mom, over the years, I was too timid to fully spread my wings and be on my own, but I’m ready now. I am ready to soar in the big ol’ sky! Like you always told me: be confident in yourself. You can DO it! I just need to keep reminding myself of that over and over.
I hope I am making you proud up there, Mom!
Until then,
Katie
